TW: detailed mention of rape. I'm really embarrassed to talk about this but my ex raped me anally. I feel incredible shame around this and sometimes it makes me feel weird about going to the bathroom. I often remember how he said he "almost got it all the way in" after the assault like it was some kind of cool funny thing. I had been crying and screaming for him to stop. I was in pain and he treated it like a joke. Is there any way to stop thinking this while I'm in the bathroom?
tw graphic rape, tw crying, tw screaming, tw faeces(poop)
It’s okay to be ashamed because its your assault and you’re allowed to feel what will help you heal but try not to linger in it okay? This was not your fault at all!!
Try distracting yourself. Focus on the tiles in the bathroom, read a book or magazine, fidget on your phone, solve a rubiks cube, anything that will keep your mind away from thinking about the assault.
If the distractions don’t work and you begin to have problems pooping please see a trusted medical professional.
I was raped exclusively anally for a very long time by a person I had trusted. I had a very, very hard time going to the bathroom for a long time. I would even dissociate on the toilet and wind up sitting there for up to an hour without realizing. Any time there was pain, I would have a panic attack and start screaming. I sympathize with you, a lot.
It’s not your fault, and it’s not unusual that you’re having trouble in this way. The same thing happened to me. I did some not-so-healthy things to cope, but I’ll try to advise you on some of the healthier stuff. I found playing loud but happy music helped, as well as talking on the phone (yeah, seriously), or anything where I really HAD to be distracted, like going in with a game that was timed so I really had to focus on the game.
This might be weird, and you need a unique friend for it, but I found that talking really explicitly about my poops helped… de-stigmatize them, and the sensation involved? I had a friend who I could come back from a traumatizing bathroom trip and say “PHEW YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE POOP I JUST HAD” and we would laugh and say pretty graphic things about pooping. Immature, maybe, but it helped the whole thing seem less dire and serious, and more an opportunity to share an amusing poop anecdote with a friend. Don’t know if this would actually work or if I’m just weird like that.
Good luck on your road through recovery! You can message me if you need to talk.
The community in Ferguson is struggling to come up with the money to keep their kids fed, since school has been cancelled all this time, yet people have donated over $12,000 to the murderer who started all of this in the last 24 hours alone. Think about that. And then donate to the right cause.
i feel sick every time i see an obviously candid photo of a japanese school girl’s legs/thighs/body on my dashboard
like the ones of them just on trains or walking or in a store where either you cant see their face or its cropped out
those are taken by perverts/pedophiles and are a huge problem in japan
the girls in the photos are generally underage (and anyway school uniforms are ALWAYS used as age markers so….) and DONT know the photo is being taken
this kind of thing (as well as upskirts, etc.) are SO common in japan that its actually illegal to produce/sell phones or cameras that allow you to silence the shutter sound so that you cannot take a secret photo of someone
and every time i see the photos on my dash i get chills because its not a cute “kawaii” photo for your pale blog its disgusting
another reason to love mark
FUCK ALL Y’ALL. MARK THE MVP
markruffalo, you are a benevolent god amongst ignorant mortals and you have my everlasting admiration, good sir.
They really tryna piss him off? Did they not see Avengers?
Where are they getting their evidence and information, because I haven’t seen none of that shit.
People trying to go home, get detained
I’m only sharing tweets for those who are not on twitter and can’t see how passionate and outraged journalists are as they tweet from #Ferguson.
If you are on Twitter, here’s a good roster of people to follow if you want to keep updated.
"From 2006 to 2012, a white police officer killed a black person at least twice a week in this country." - MHP
Melissa Harris-Perry gives a heart-wrenching tribute to the deaths of black men that have occurred at the hands of police in the past decade.
FYI Israel has resumed bombing Gaza and has already injured 2 children.
idk why police officers being monitored to make sure they’re performing their duties ethically and within legal parameters is such a controversial topic because if I recall they’re a fan of using the whole “if you’ve got nothing to hide you’ve got nothing to fear” shtick to justify harassing civilians it’s almost like they’re full of bullshit